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Deleting this blog.

Or, if I can’t delete it, I’m just not using it anymore. Gonna make a new one that’ll be more public. Maybe. We’ll see.

Either way, goodbye.

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By the way,

Just kidding about the two posts…

Incoming two posts.

This is the first of two posts tonight (maybe). This is gonna be one of my usual tell about my life status update things. Then more of an essay thing that I plan on posting to FB and such. So let’s start this up.
I just got home from Lubbock. Texas Tech freshman “Red Raider Orientation” was today. I really enjoyed it. I’m taking 16 (maybe 17) hours this first semester, which should be fun for the most part. Lots of music classes: theory, history, aural skills, band, marching band, lessons. LOTS. But I’m pumped.
Speaking of RRO, I already met someone who I really like. She’s from Mansfield, and she’s super awesome. She plays bassoon (not doing it in college, I don’t think) and she used to be in colorguard. She’s got a wonderful smile and she’s just pretty in general. We got along really well, and even if we don’t date we’ll be good friends I know. Here’s hopin’!
I’ve been re-reading the Harry Potter series. I’m on number 5. Been reading them on my new Kindle that I bought myself. I love it.
Speaking of getting things, I got the iPhone 4 and it’s beautiful. I haven’t had any problems. People just need to suck it up and face the fact that it’s the best phone they’ve ever owned.
I need to start on audition music. I’ll get on top of that.
Anyway, I’ve gotten HUGE into Twitter lately. I LOVE TWITTER.

That’s all. Abrupt, huh?

Oh, hey there.

I broke up with her. And life’s better. Especially now that summer’s here. Definitely enjoying the free time. Getting money is nice too. Applied for Half Price Books. Teaching horn lessons.
Yup. Life is good.

So, uh…you can say “I told you so” now.

I know my last post was password protected, but  basically I was just complaining about how my best friend who had just broken up with my ex-girlfriend got pissed when I decided I liked her again and we kissed. He and my other two best friends basically said that I shouldn’t date her for a long time because I had lied about “waiting a while” before dating or doing anything with her. We waited a while, but not a terribly long time and started dating.

And whaddya know? I should’ve listened to my friends. This relationship is turning out the same way it did the first time; she complains all the time, she tries to make me feel bad when I don’t do or say something she wants me to, she gets upset when I don’t text her first, and blah blah blah. We’ve been dating for close to two months now and I’ve already been thinking about breaking it off for two weeks now. The only reason I haven’t is because I’m hoping that things get better and that she improves, but it isn’t looking that way at the moment.

The first time we dated was similar, without the disapproval of my friends. I broke up with her after three months because I was feeling suffocated by how much she complained and how clingy she was. She made a huge stink about it on the phone the night I broke up with her, but after that we stayed close friends.

After she broke up with my best friend, she started texting me a lot and it was pretty clear that she was liking me again. I thought to myself, hey! maybe I still like her too. And things moved on from there. So now we’re dating.

…and I’m feeling suffocated again. She has to be holding my hand every time we’re within arm’s reach of each other, and she tries to act cute but most of the time it just comes out awkward. Then she gets mad because I don’t try anything cute with her.

Supposedly, after we broke up, she never stopped liking me, even though she dated two guys in between. When we got back in the swing of things with each other, we were back to kissing and saying “I love you”.

For the record, when I say “I love you” to her I don’t mean that I’m ready for marriage. At all. It’s just a good phrase to use when saying good by and concludes things nicely. It lets her know that I care for her. But I only mean that I care for her the way a boyfriend should care for his girlfriend in high school. Nothing more. It’s a high school relationship.

When we text, if I don’t reply fast enough to her liking she sends me the same text again. Bugs the crap out of me. If I don’t say I love you when I tell her goodnight, she tries to make me feel like a terrible person. And, as stated, she gets mad if I don’t text her first in a conversation…but she never gives me the opportunity to text first.

She complains that we don’t hang out enough. I’m president of two school organizations and a normal member of two others, all of which have their times when I have to stay after school and rehearse. And then I have homework for AP classes when I get home. What does she expect?

I drive her everywhere. She doesn’t have a car of her own because of financial problems. I understand that and I sympathize and I really don’t mind giving her rides home, but every time I drop her off at her house we sit in my car for at least ten minutes and make out (gross, I know, but sorry). Now, I’m as big a fan of kissing as the next guy, but I don’t think that it should be a ritual that happens like this every day. She does the same thing when we DO manage to hang out; most of the time we watch TV or a movie, and she always has to make out during whatever it is. Now, I don’t know about you, but when I’m watching something I want to watch it, not make out. There’s a time and a place for that, and it’s not while hanging out and watching a movie.

I have lots of other complaints too, but I’m bored with typing. Bottom line, I’m going to break up with her. Eventually. Probably in the summer after graduation, which is only a little over a month a way. I say a month and two weeks would be a good time. And then I have going to the same college as her to look forward to. =/

Needless to say, I need your prayers. Badly. Help me make the right decisions and, although I know she’ll be hurt no matter what, please pray that this whole thing is as painless as possible.

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Can you say “conflict”?

So, my best friend began dating my ex-girlfriend four weeks ago. A week ago, she broke up with him on the grounds that “he was moving too fast.” Now, she’s turned back to me and I think I like her back, but I don’t want to hurt my best friend.
AAAAGGGHHHHH
We’ll see how this turns out.

Last night’s dream.

*kiss*

her – “So…what are you thinking?”

me – “I’m thinking I want a chance with you.”

her – “And I’m going to give you one. But you’ve got to promise not to hurt me.”

(I understand why) me – “I promise.”

*kiss, hug*

her – “You’re like the cutest guy ever.”

me – “You too. You’re so pretty.”

That’s all I remember. This was with my recent crush. I guess it’s the first girl I’ve been serious about in more than a year because I actually dreamed about her. Hmm. If only dreams always came true.