Because I Can’t Sleep.

Don’t you hate when you feel like sleep would be wonderful but you just can’t convince your body to put itself to rest? That’s what’s happening to me right now. Ugh. As a result, here I am, sitting with my iPhone typing up a post. Earlier than usual, I might add. Anyway.
Let’s just start with my weekend, I suppose. Friday after school I had Into the Woods rehearsal (where I completely failed a memory test our director decided to give), and after that I had rehearsal for the symphony orchestra I qualified for. More rehearsal came for that the next morning and lasted most of the day, but let me tell you, that was one of my personal top 3 concerts ever…and I didn’t even play first horn. I got to play loud, play low, and do stuff I don’t always get to do in school, so that was fun, and, in addition, I sat next to another horn player I met freshman year, from Berkner, so it made it that much more fun. I can’t wait to get that recording.
After yesterday’s epic concert, I spent most of today (after church) playing PokéMon Red (old school all the way) and helping my grandfather with his Christmas decorations (he paid me $20, but I would have helped without the pay too).
Speaking of PokéMon, what a great glimpse of my childhood! I remember when I first got the Blue version I had to ask my dad for help because I couldn’t figure out how to exit a room once I first started the game. I also remember that Saturday morning when I beat the Elite Four for the first time, on my Yellow version, and how happy I was about it. I remember how awesome the first few games and, likewise, the first few seasons really were. I loved that series.
Moving on. This week is the last week of my last first semester of high school (wrap your head around that one). I’m exempt from all of my exams, although I’ve missed plenty of classtime (all school-excused :3), probably more than most other kids. I have an essay and a project due this week, both in the same class, but, other than that, hopefully this week won’t be too stressful. We should start blocking the musical this week, so that should be fun (and give me something legitimate to do in rehearsal). Choir concert Tuesday night. I also have to finish up my choir Honors Binder stuff for Tuesday and practice conducting my song (The Quest Unending! ) a few times for my honors choir six weeks test. Oh yeah, and I need to start kicking on band solo and ensemble and area, as well as get started learning my solo for choir solo and ensemble.
I’m ready for Christmas to be here. One) the gifts: that’s not what Christmas is about, I know, but you can’t not be excited about getting nice stuff. Two) break. No real schoolwork for a couple of weeks. Three) family. I love spending time with family. I really do. Four) the food. OH GOSH, I love the food. Five) no worries. From anyone. It’s really the one time of year when people are really laid back and relaxed. I like it. And six) the remembrance. Whether you believe it or not, I believe that this holiday celebrates the birth of Jesus, and that’s is truly the reason for the season.
Speaking of Jesus, our church gave us pamphlets with daily scripture readings, starting in January, that will have us reading through the entire Bible in 2010. I think I’m going to try and do it. They also gave us a couple of mp3 discs that contain the entire New Testament. Listening to it for less than half an hour a day will have you through the whole New Testament in 40 days. Might check that out too.
Last thing before I try to go to sleep again. I started thinking about relationships again and got this crazy notion that I should ask my ex out again (my only real ex, not the fake one from eighth and ninth grade). I initially broke up with her because she was bugging me and I thought she was annoying/too clingy. But after thinking about it a bit tonight, I realized that she’s the only girl at school (single girl, that is) who I could really see me dating right now and that that would be the right thing to do. I don’t know. I don’t want to try again because I wouldn’t have the courage to break up with her a second time (I’d have to wait on her to break up with me, which I don’t know how long it would take), but I still don’t like being lonely. I can deal with it though. I’m lonely, but I have ten times more patience than most people, as well as the maturity level of someone ten years older than me, so I wouldn’t have any trouble waiting if that’s what I need to do.
Anyway. Hopefully all of that will have made me more tired and I’ll fall asleep easier now. We’ll see. Anyway, goodnight.

In lieu of my research paper.

So, I shouldn’t be on WordPress right now. I SHOULD be working on my research paper, the one due tomorrow. Oh well. It’s a stupid prompt and I’ll be up late anyway.

School hasn’t slowed down much since my last post. Been taking tests in my AP Government class every class for the past few periods, the research paper that’s due tomorrow, a separate worksheet also due in English tomorrow, Calculus out the wazoo (we finally got to stuff that I don’t completely understand), and a Spanish project due tomorrow. Oh, joy. I need to keep my grades up though…I want to stay in my position as part of the top 5% of my class, though my college focus won’t be academics. I still want to do well though.

Speaking of college, Texas Tech is the school for me. I visited the campus back in October, and I really liked it. HUGE campus, by the way. The plan is to room with Andrew Grant in the honors dorm while he majors in whatever he’s doing (he hasn’t full made up his mind yet) and while I major in music education. We’ll definitely be taking our bikes out there since the campus is so big. Get our daily dose of exercise; Lord knows we need it.

SPEAKING OF MUSIC, have I got news for you! All-Region Choir auditions – 8th chair at region, advanced to Pre-Area, 7th chair at Pre-Area (2nd alternate for Area). BUT, here’s the real news: ALL-REGION BAND AUDITIONS – 6TH IN MY ROOM AT PHASE 1 (out of 45-60 people in my room), 7TH OUT OF 34 AT PHASE 2, 1ST CHAIR WIND SYMPHONY, QUALIFIED FOR SYMPHONY ORCHESTRA (heck yeah), AND (the best news yet) ADVANCED TO AREA! This is what I’ve been hoping for since I didn’t make it last year. I really have a chance to make the all-state band. I think I can do it, but it’s going to take a lot of work. They only take two from the next level, and, if I can do that, I can say hello to the 4A All-State Band. Hopefully. *knock on wood*

The musical finally started up. Into the Woods, by Stephen Sondheim. An awesome musical with awesome music, albeit extremely difficult. When I first read about it and looked/listened to some of the songs, I decided I wanted to be Jack because he sings the most, and, frankly, that’s why I think I make these musicals in the first place: because I can sing, not because I can (or can’t) act. Showcase came, I sucked it up (more like, the piano player sucked it up which made me suck it up), auditions came, I did tons better, and, when the callbacks list was posted, I wasn’t called back for Jack. Instead, I was being considered for the Baker, the Princes, and the Wolf. I decided I wanted the Baker, since he’s the actual “lead” of the musical. Callbacks came and I left that night knowing that I wasn’t going to be Jack. I thought she would put me as one of the princes instead. Whether I was wrong or not, I did NOT want the wolf. Only one song, two scenes, and his belly’s slit, dead. However, when results were posted, I saw my name next to exactly that role: the wolf. Huge let-down at first. After all, my senior year, I’ve had lead roles in all but one musical since seventh grade, and I get the smallest role in the cast. I wasn’t too happy. But I’ve done a lot of thinking since then and I decided some stuff. First: the guy who got Baker is one of my best friends. I shouldn’t be upset that he got the role over me. He’s good and he deserves it. Second: SLam didn’t put me as one of the princes because they’re too close to Gaston. Third: I wasn’t considered for Jack because I am not a strong tenor nor do I resemble a young boy in any form or fashion. Fourth: Maybe she put me as the wolf not because she didn’t think I’d fit one of the other roles, but instead because she thought I was the only one who could do the wolf justice. All of these reasons made me feel a lot better about myself, and now I’m looking forward to this role. After all, I’ll probably get a super awesome costume, and this character is so far from myself that I’m bound to have a blast doing it. I’m actually pretty pumped.

Relationship status hasn’t changed (I feel obliged to mention this stuff at least once per post). Not interested in that one girl anymore, and I don’t think I’m really interested in anyone at the moment. I’m actually pretty chill about it for now. Too busy to worry about that stuff right now anyway, so I won’t. The time will come eventually.

I jailbroke my iPhone for a week before I decided that it was wiping too much battery too quickly, so I decided to drop it. I’m glad I’m back to normal; the jailbroken stuff, although cool, just didn’t seem “home-y,” I guess is the right word.

I love Christmas music. I’ve currently replaced my favorite oldies station (the one I normally go to sleep to, wake up to, and drive to) with an all-Christmas station because I love the music so much. It’s just such a fun genre that always brings a smile. Always puts me in a good mood.

Anyway, it’s 10:20pm and I’ve added nothing to my research paper, so I suppose I better get off and get that done. Goodnight.

If I said that I didn’t have a girlfriend because I think they’re overrated, would you believe me?

I wouldn’t either.
Anyway, busy busy busy. ALL THE TIME. I’ll cover everything one at a time. Here goes.
All-Region Choir auditions went well. Eighth chair in my room, which means I made the choir and I get to go to pre-area. My goal there is to make top 5, but I don’t know if I’ll keep going after that. If all goes to plan, I won’t because I’ll be going to area for band instead. *knock on wood* I need to work on audition music for both pre-area choir and all-region band so I can meet my goals for both.
Next. Marching band. Poteet got third place behind Dripping Springs and Friendswood. I was really upset because it was the first time we hadn’t been state champions since the 2003 Pirate Band, the one that didn’t even make it to finals. But, looking back, I’m glad we got third because hey, we placed, didn’t we? That’s good enough. We gave our best performance of the year and it was awesome, first place or not. It was a great NOTE to end senior marching season on.
I’m looking forward to concert season. I love playing my horn, and I love playing with the honors band because we’re awesome. Hopefully we’ll have some more great music this year.
AP classes are kicking my butt. I’m not doing terrible, but the work load is weighing me down. I don’t know, maybe it will get better now that marching season is over and so is the six weeks. Hopefully.
Obviously, my relationship status hasn’t changed. I don’t know if it will any time soon. I’m not super worried about it right now. I want a date to prom and banquet season though. That’s my goal as far as that goes.
I’m ready for the musical to start up. I’m almost assured a lead role *knock on wood* this year now that I’m a senior and I’ve been a lead two years in a row (making me the most experienced musical theatre person in the school right now; wow, I just thought of that!). I’m hoping to end with a bang with a great show that will really show off my talents. I want to start stepping up all of my theatre stuff because I don’t think I’m a good actor at all. Theatre goal: score the lead in the musical and get an award at UIL One Act.
That’s pretty much it for now. I need to read the rest of Hamlet. Anyway, goodnight everyone!

EDIT: I came up with this yesterday; let me know what you think: Plan for the future, but live for today.

That is all.

If You Can’t Beat Them

Here’s a general update post.

School has started back up. Nothing too special so far. I like all of my teachers, except for AP government. It’s not that I don’t like her, it’s just that I don’t know exactly what to think of her; she’s a little weird.

Band is going alright. We had our first football game performance last night, and Mr. C said that “for the first time, [we] weren’t God-awful”, so that’s an improvement. Presidency is going alright. Band blowout was a blast, despite the original “oh crap we don’t have dodgeballs” scare fifteen minutes before the dodgeball games started. Oh well, we got through it and it was fun. I need to start work on the officer videos and stuff like that.

Choir picnic is supposed to be on Wednesday, but I may talk to ADub and see if we can just wait to have it later in the semester. We haven’t spread the word much, and I’m worried that we won’t have a good turnout if we have it this week.

Speaking of choir, I got my schedule fixed. See, I took BCIS over the summer through Eastfield, but I had already signed up for the class at Poteet this year. So, I had to get my schedule changed. The initial plan was to replace BCIS with teacher’s aide for band, but they signed me up for BCIS the only period of the day when there isn’t a band class, so I switched to Variety. I’ve been in Variety for two years (this is my third), but this is my first time in the actual class, so this will hopefully be a good experience.

Time to get kickin’ on all-region auditions, for both band AND choir. My goal this year is to make myself decide which to advance on to state with: band or choir, since you can’t be in both state organizations.

I was sitting on the bus last night with my ex-girlfriend (she asked if we could be “bus buddies” for the one-and-a-half hour ride out to Denton), and she was getting tired, so she asked if she could lay her head on my shoulder. I said sure because I didn’t want to be a jerk. So for fifteen to twenty minutes she lay there on my shoulder as we watched Raiders of the Lost Ark on my iPhone together. It was a bit depressing because it made me think of what I once had, but I don’t have anymore. I miss having a girlfriend. Someone to cuddle up next to, to hold hands with, to go see movies with, to kiss, you know the deal. I’m not saying that I want to go out with her again, but the whole time she lay there I wanted to lift her chin up with my finger and kiss her, not because it was her, but because that’s what I felt would be the right thing to do, with any girl.

I haven’t made any progress with the girl I text all the time. She moved to Denton so she can attend UNT, so now there’s even less of a chance I’ll ever date her. I need to give up on her, but there’s still part of me that wants to keep going at it, though I know nothing will probably come of it.

I’m always looking at other girls that I go to school with, but there isn’t anyone I’m absolutely crazy for. One of this year’s drum majors has a knock-out body, but she can be a real you-know-what, so that makes her out of the question. There’s a couple of other knock-out girls in band, but I’m not good friends with her friends, so that would make things a bit awkward.

Plus, nobody my grade has the maturity level ( as well as the looks) that I want in a girl. I’m not saying that my girlfriend has to be a knock-out or have a super-skinny body, but I DO have standards. I don’t know, maybe my standards are too high? Who knows. I’ve just got to wait things out and see where God leaves me.
So, I bought some records the other day. Four Queen albums: News of the World, Hot Space, The Game, and Jazz (my favorite of the four). Not only has this gotten me interested in records, but it’s got me in another Queen phase. Haha. I’ve been listening to those records non-stop. It’s awesome.
Anyway, that’s it for now. I don’t know when I’ll post again. Goodnight, everyone.

I’m the invisible man….

Another update coming from my iPhone. Speaking of which, the new update I have been waiting for since before I even got the phone is being released tomorrow (Wednesday). It’s enabling landscape mode in more applications, which will be a blessing, voice memos, which might be handy every once in a while, and multimedia messaging, which will just be awesome. They’re also releasing a new iPhone period called the iPhone 3G S (the current one is simply called the iPhone 3G). The only real updates in the new phone is a compass feature, video recording capabilities, and voice control. I want it for the video mainly, but it’s not going to happen. Oh well.
I got the new earphones I ordered from Amazon today. They have a microphone, so I can use them with my iPhone, and they are a heck of a lot more comfortable/fitting than the ones that Apple so generously provided. Blah. So that’s a good thing.
Anyway, I’m trying to get people to start using AIM again, and it’s working….to a point. I’m just wanting a better way to stay in contact since not everyone has unlimited texting like I do.
I downloaded the full works of both the Beatles and Queen this week (two of the greatest bands to ever exist). 527 songs or something around that. Some great stuff that I hadn’t heard before in that. It’s pretty cool.
I start summer school tomorrow, but it’s not that big of a deal. I go every weekday for about six weeks from 1:15 to 3:30, which isn’t bad at all. Eastfield classes aren’t until later in the summer.
I need to plan our first officer meeting…..soon. Hopefully this week.
My situation with her hasn’t changed at all. I left her alone today and didn’t text her, just to see if she would text me instead. No luck so far, but there is always a chance. She stays up until five in the morning most nights. What a night owl. She mentioned the other day, however, that we should get together and exchange music sometime. That would be a great step toward a possible “us”.
Anyway, I think that I’m done typing for this post. I might go to sleep in a minute. Goodnight!

Update on the last update.

Hey, Internet world. Long time no post, eh?

Well, like I said last time, we had band auditions back in May, and, as it turns out, I got first chair, so I am now the first chair honor band and section leader for my section in band.

On top of that, officer elections took place for both band and choir, choir first, and I was elected as president for both organizations; it’s going to be a tough job, but I’m ready for the challege. I want a great senior year and now I have the power to make just that.

I’m currently at my grandparents’ house in Terrell. I’ve been lounging around on the computer and watching movies on TV, so I’ve been able to just veg out. We’ve fixed my favorite foods, and some of my favorite movies have been on. I always love coming up here just because my grandparents know that I just want to relax. I saw Up with them the other day for the second time (fantastic movie; see it in 3D, it’s better), and I’m seeing Star Trek for the first time tomorrow with my grandfather. I’m pumped.

Summer school starts this week for me. I’m not too excited about that, but it’s only two hours a day, so it shouldn’t be a terrible burden. Later in the summer I start dual credit BCIS through Eastfield. I do NOT want to take that class during the school year. It’s such a waste. I already know how to use Microsoft Office, so I don’t need to spend a year doing it. Anyway.

I’m still talking to her almost every day. I don’t know what to think of us anymore. I don’t know if I stand any sort of chance with her, and it seems like I’m too chicken to find out. I wish that I wasn’t so afraid of rejection, or, rather, loss of a friend due to rejection. I HATE to lose friends, whether they hate/avoid me or whether we just lose contact with each other. I don’t know.

But she is SO awesome! She’s funny, she laughs at my lame attempts at humor, and she’s just an incredible person. It’s been more than six months since we first started talking to each other and I haven’t done anything in the way of trying to make her my girlfriend. She was in MY CAR, in the FRONT SEAT, RIGHT NEXT TO ME. We were alone for part of that time, but I did nothing.

Blah. All I can do is pray to God to give me courage to ask a girl out, whether it be her or someone else. It’s up to God to decide.

Moving on. Still loving my iPhone. The new update comes out this next week, the update that I have been SUPER PUMPED about since before I even got the phone. I have tons of apps, and I use it all the time. It is the most worthwhile thing I’ve ever gotten. It’s my email, my FaceBook, my Internet, my music, my entertainment, anything. There isn’t much this phone can’t do. If you have any doubts about getting it, don’t. It’s definitely worth the buy, no matter what kind you get. To be honest, you don’t really need more than an 8GB, but it’s up to you.

That’s all for now. Back to Wall-E. I’ll post more later.

Updates.

Another post after a long hiatus, only this time with a twist: I’m posting from my two-week old iPhone. Pretty cool, eh?
Anyway. School news first, from least to most interesting.
APUSH AP exam was last Friday. I can’t honestly say how I did. I can say that it wasn’t as difficult as I thought it would be, and I don’t think I bombed it. We’ll just have pray that I at least passed.
I take the English AP exam on Wednesday. I’m not near as worried about this one as I was for APUSH. The multiple choice will he terrible, but I’m counting on redeeming myself with the essays.
We auditioned for band next year this past week, and I think that, not counting one measure that I screwed up, I did great. I’m hoping for the first chair section leader position that I’ve been waiting for.
After auditions comes the concert, and after the concert comes officer elections. I’m running for president. It’s the position that I’ve been wanting since freshman year, so I’m pretty pumped. I think I stand a good chance. Knock on wood.
I’m also running for choir officers. I’m vice president this year, so it looks like I might be president for choir as well. Knock on wood. Juggling both presidencies might be tough, but I think that I can pull it off.
Speaking of choir, we just got back from a four day trip to New York City on Tuesday. That trip rocked; I had so much fun. It was a great way to take a much needed break from the stress of school.
Senior directed plays started up as soon as I got home. I don’t have a major part in this play, but I don’t even mind. I don’t even know if I like the play. Either it’s bad and it makes no sense or my director did a terrible job cutting it. I’m thinking it’s the latter, but it’s her play. Let her do what she wants.
I got asked out yesterday. Sort of. One of my good friends asked me if I had ever thought about being more than friends. I felt terrible for telling her no because she is super sweet, one of the sweetest girls I know. And she is super pretty. But I said no nonetheless.
I’m much more interested in someone else, however foolish my feelings may be. Yes, the same girl as last post. Yes, we still talk all the time. Or text. However you want to look at it. Maybe I’ll get the courage to ask her out one of these days, or maybe I’ll just leave it alone and never say anything like I have in the past. Probably the latter.
Anyway, it’s late, it’s Mothers’ Day, and it’s time for me to stop typing for a faceless audience. For tonight, anyway.
Goodnight, everyone.

It’s been a long time.

What’s happened since my last post?

Break up.

Musical. 

Solo & Ensemble(s).

UIL Play auditions.

New crush.

Anyway, now that that’s been summed up, it’s time to turn this post into the traditional “I like a new girl” post. It’s what I’m best at.

We didn’t start talking to each other until after she graduated last year, which sucks. She’s super cool, she’s got great taste in music, she’s pretty, she’s funny, and she’s just an all-around great person. 

And I like her. A lot, actually.

I text her every day. EVERY DAY. 

Does she like me? I don’t know. All I know is that I used to be the one who would start the daily text conversation, but now she does that on her own. She’s come to me for advice in the past, advice meaning stuff that could honestly affect her present and future life. So she at least trusts me.

The only problem with me liking her is my issue with asking a girl out. I suck at it, and, since she is two years older than me, I’d have to get my parents’ approval first. Which is awkward. And I don’t know exactly what they would say because not only is she older than me by two years, she also has three tattoos and a nose piercing, which is generally frowned upon in my family, I suppose. Sort of. I just know that if I ever came home with either a piercing or a tattoo my mother would rip it off. Yes, even the tattoos.

 

Anyway, it’s late and I don’t want to type more. I’m talking to her right this minute. Maybe there will be more to come in the new future. It’s possible. 

Enough. Goodnight, everyone. I’m back!

Yearbooks.

Last night I was looking through my old elementary school yearbooks. I don’t know what gave me the urge to do so, but, for whatever reason, I sat there flipping through the pages of my childhood.

I started seeing people that I continue seeing today. Band people, sports people, smart people, dumb people, people that I don’t talk to, people that I spend all my time with. The link? They all changed.

Of course, the obvious change was in physical appearance. Those that had been short and/or chubby were now fit and tall(er). Those that had been skinny as toothpicks were now some of the biggest people out there. People had changed hairstyles, lost/gotten braces, changed their smile, changed their style.

And some changed who they were. In fact, most did.

He was young, innocent, filled with hopes and dreams, ready to experience the world, ready to interact further with others, ready to make something of himself. Now, he could care less. He’s lost hope in his friends, in his family, in God, in himself.

She was also young and innocent. She had a cute smile, she had a modest personality, she had a loving group of sweet friends. Now, she hangs out on MySpace, posting pictures of herself dressed in hardly any clothes, posing innappropriately for the camera. She dresses with an attitude, she talks with foul language, and she follows the example set by her friends, and they follow her in turn.

What has happened to them? What has happened to us? Why did many of us choose this path? Why did we mess with our lives, ruining those dreams that we had as children? Was change pressed upon us? Was it shoved down our throats as we made every attempt not to swallow? Was it sudden, was it slow, was it like poison?

But then there are those that have made something of themselves. The boy with no friends is now one of the top students of his grade and he has a wonderful group of friends. The girl who wasn’t necessarily the prettiest is now beautiful, but she keeps that modest quality that makes her who she is.

What makes them different from those who changed for the worse? What sets them apart? Did they have a diffrent set of circumstances thrust upon them? Did they have the benefit of a loving family, of a loving God? What sets them apart?

I’m not sure, and I’m not sure if I’ll ever know.

Me? As I flip through my yearbook, I can only hope that each picture shows a better person, a better me. This is what I strive for everyday, with every action, with every hello, with every goodbye, with every step that I take, with every word that I speak.

What about you? What do you see as you flip through your yearbook? Do you see growth? Or do you see decline? Do you see a two-face? Do you see a liar? Do you see a jerk? Do you see a bully? Do you see a slut?

Think about it. What do your yearbooks show about you?

God Does Things In Strange But Delightful Ways

Wow.

Just wow.

Who could have seen this coming? I certainly didn’t.

For those of you who don’t know, which should be, ah, I don’t know, EVERYONE, I have a girlfriend now, for the first time since I created this site. It just happened today, too.

She had sort of asked me back in May for the band banquet. She asked me to be her date, and when I asked if it was supposed to be as friends or as a couple, she said “It’s up to you. =]”. I said no to the couple, but yes to the date. Obviously, I changed my mind.

I’m really happy for it, and excited for us, but the thing is, it didn’t happen the way I had planned.

I’ve been thinking about asking her out for a good while now. I’d say a month or so, maybe even less. My original plan was to somehow get us sitting next to each other, and I would write a note so that she could watch, similar to this:

You.

Me.

Homecoming?

Boyfriend/Girlfriend?

Then, the way I imagined it, she would get this big grin across her face and hug me and say yes.

When I figured that that wouldn’t work, I thought about the two hour bus ride we had to a football game last night for the band. We’re on the same bus, and I could sit by her and ask her then. Well, that didn’t happen either because I’m a coward. We’ve established this in past posts.

By this point, a couple of people (including her) had told me that I needed to ask her already (I had done one of those MySpace blogs where you write something to say to several people without saying their names, and I said that I was planning on asking her out there; yeah, I’m a dork), so I was under pressure, and homecoming is this coming Saturday.

So, we got back from the game around midnight, and we climbed into our own cars, and before I left the parking lot I sent her a text, which started a long text conversation that I will now post. I’m the first person, and it alternates after that.

“Homecoming?”

“What about it?”

“I’m such an idiot. Lo siento. Anyway, You, me, homecoming?”  (Lo siento is sort of an insider between the two of us; I kept saying “sorry” to her one day during English, and she said to stop, so I said “Lo siento” instead, which is the Spanish translation)

“It’s fine. Haha. Love to.”

“I feel like a jerk, asking you like this.”

“You’re not a jerk. It’s sweet.”

“If you say so. =]”

“It’s fine. I’m glad you asked. At least it wasn’t over myspace. Haha.”

“I would hate myself if I did that. So…friends, more, your choice….frick I’m retarded.”

“It’s up to you. You’re the one who asked me. Haha.”

“You’re the one who says yes or no. =]”

“What am i saying yes or no to?”

“Friends….or more?”

“I’d have to say…(dramatic pause) haha. More? You should know the answer. Haha.”

“Haha, I’m glad. Haha. Tell ******** I stopped procrastinating.”

“Haha. Yay. I’m glad too!”

“Awesome. Goodnight.”

“Haha. Good night.”

“… I’m still confused.”

“About what?”

“About what you asked me. What did i say yes to? I’m not gonna change my answer… I’m just confused.”

“A more than friends relationship. Still confused?”

“For homecoming or what?”

“Your choice. =)” (mysterious smiley change)

“Ugh. What are you asking me?”

“Haha, sorry for not being more straightforward. Do you want us to be friends….or a couple?”

“…couple?

“Awesome. =)”

“Glad to make you happy. Haha.. Well me too. But yeah.”

That’s it. Exactly as it went on.

Well, I just wanted to update all of you random creepy people that read my blog on what was happening in my life, since I hadn’t posted in a while.

Oh yeah, lump update from my last post.

Remember that lump from the back of my neck? All it was (is) is a sebaceous cyst, which is nonmalignant. I can get it removed, but it won’t hurt me if I don’t. Thanks to all of you that were reading, anyway.

Goodnight, everyone.